A few weeks ago, in the middle of another COVID lockdown. I decided to go for a bushwalking and take some self portraits.
It was my first time ever taking self portraits outside of my house/property. It was so nerve racking! I was worried someone was going to see me and judge me! Mind you, I was in the middle of the bush, in an open area where I could see for majority of a km each way. I had bush-walked through this location so many times, so I knew it was not a busy place. But I still had the fear of judgement and being seen by a passing 4WD or motorbike rider.
I set up on the far side, in attempts to capture the setting golden sun behind me. It felt really weird being out in the open but turns out I really loved it! I felt so free and empowered and I didn't care as much as I thought I would.
The lighting at the end was gorgeous! I found the perfect spot, facing the sun as it has just hit the horizon. The lighting was so soft and dreamy!
As I was doing my last set and finishing up in this gorgeous lighting spot, I heard a ute came behind me and I was like oooh myyy goshhhh. I went bright red and instantly stopped.
The guys drove by and waved politely as they passed. It was as good as a situation can be when you get caught posing for your camera in the middle of the bush.
I actually really like these photos! I feel confident and pretty. It made me see myself in a different way, with different lighting and angles. I wasn't expecting it and I'm pleasantly surprised. I really loved taking self portraits outside, it was different and fun and had this carefree vibe to it. I will definitely be doing it again! I can't wait to embrace myself more and more and not worry about what others think.